🌀Mood: Grateful, Reflective, Hopeful, Vulnerable, Faith-filled It’s been almost six months since I last sat in this chair. And yet, here I am again. The last time I was here, I was still fighting to get my multiple myeloma under control. Every treatment was another step toward my stem cell transplant, another step toward the hope of remission. But today is different. I’m in remission. … Continue reading 54 – Back in the Infusion Chair
“We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.” – Hebrews 6:19 🌀Mood: Reflective, deeply grateful, hopeful, vulnerable, faith-filled, and ultimately joyful. One year ago today, my life changed forever. On July 28, 2025, after five months of relentless back pain, countless questions, and visits to five different doctors, I finally received an answer. It wasn’t the answer I expected—or the … Continue reading 52 – My Anchor Held: One Year Later
Day +90 🌀Mood: Thankful, Encouraged, Waiting Today marks Day +90 after my autologous stem cell transplant. Ninety days. When I was admitted for transplant, Day +90 felt impossibly far away. At the time, I wasn’t thinking about milestones. I was thinking about getting through the next day, the next blood draw, the next medication, the next wave of nausea and fatigue. But somehow, one day … Continue reading 51 – Ninety Days Later
🌀Mood: grateful, reflective, healing, hopeful Tomorrow, I go back to work. Half days. Slowly. That sentence feels much bigger than it probably sounds. For weeks, so many people have been counting down to this moment for me. “Getting back to normal.” “Getting back to life.” And in many ways, I understand why. Returning to work after a stem cell transplant feels like progress. It is … Continue reading 49 – Half Days & Healing
🌀Mood: uncertain, patient, honest, grounded, reflective One thing I’m learning about recovery is that it doesn’t always come with clear answers. Sometimes, it comes with more questions. I had an appointment with the neurosurgeon this past week to look into the pain I’ve been feeling in my back… along with a fractured rib on the right side. That alone was surprising. You would think that … Continue reading 47 – Waiting for Answers
🌀Mood: Grateful, honest, vulnerable, steady, hopeful Throughout the transplant process, the words you want to hear more than anything are:“You can go home.” I thought about that moment a lot.I pictured what it would feel like, how excited I would be when I finally heard those words. And when I did… I was. But the last week leading up to going home was rough.I had … Continue reading 45 – You Can Go Home
🌀Mood: Raw. Restless. Drained. Surviving. They call this part of the process “the valley.” I knew it was coming.They prepared me for it.Days 4 through 14… the hardest stretch. But knowing about it and living it are two very different things. The valley isn’t just about feeling sick.It’s about being completely emptied out. By the time I was admitted to the hospital, my body was … Continue reading 41 – What the Valley Really Is
🌀Mood: Drained. Foggy. Fragile. Enduring. I haven’t written in a while.Around Day 5, things shifted.I ended up being admitted into the hospital because I couldn’t keep my medications down. Every time I tried to swallow pills, my stomach would cramp and I would vomit. It got to the point where it just wasn’t sustainable anymore—physically or mentally.So now everything goes through my Hickman line. It’s … Continue reading 40 – Day 5 to Day 11: The Valley
After melphalan cleared the garden, the rebuilding could begin. Two days ago, melphalan cleared the garden.Today, my own stem cells came home. It’s taken me a few days to write this. After two days of stem cell infusions, I needed the rest. Now that I have a little more energy, I want to share what Day 0 was like. Day 0 at Fred Hutch started … Continue reading 39 — Day 0: The Beginning of the Rebuild
🌀Mood: Courage, Uncertainty, Preparation, Resolve Yesterday I met a different version of myself in the mirror. Today I began the treatment that will rebuild my body from the inside out. Today was melphalan day. Melphalan is the chemotherapy given before a stem cell transplant. Its job is simple, but powerful: wipe out the blood-forming stem cells living inside my bone marrow so new, healthy ones … Continue reading 38 – Melphalan Day — The Clearing Begins
