🌀Mood: Fragile. Adjusting. Honest. Rebuilding.

I’m out of the hospital.

And while that feels like a big step…
this part of the journey is still far from easy.

There’s this idea that once you come out of the valley, things start to feel normal again.

That’s not really how it works.

It’s more like… your body is slowly trying to find its way back.

When I left the hospital, my body was holding onto so much fluid from everything they had been giving me.
My ankles were swollen—tight, uncomfortable.

Over the last few days, I’ve started walking again—just getting back into a normal routine as much as I can.

And little by little… the swelling has gone down.

It’s a small thing, but it felt like progress.

I’m also not eating much right now.
My appetite just isn’t there, and I’ve lost some weight.

It’s part of the process… but it’s still something I notice.

And then there’s my hair.

It actually started falling out while I was still in the hospital.
If I ran a comb through it, it would come out in the comb.

So when I got home, I decided to shave it.

Not because I was ready…
but because it felt like the next step in this process.

This is what recovery looks like right now.

Not a big moment.
Not a finish line.

Just small shifts.
A body adjusting.
A new version of normal that I’m still getting used to.

I’m out of the valley.

But I’m still very much in the rebuild.